Confessional: I binged last night


For the first time in weeks I fell off the wagon.  I don’t know what triggered it, really.  I’d had a really good couple of days with food.  Really good – lots of veggies, fruit, and water, lower sodium than usual, and less coffee.  My heartburn was nonexistent and everything.  Last night I just lost it.

The planned dinner for me was biscuits and gravy and fruit.  I wasn’t really hungry and  the rain did not help at all.  I was chilly but not cold and just not feeling much other than sick (yes, still).  The family went with a take out chicken meal complete with Cajun beans, dirty rice, and mashed potatoes with sausage gravy.  I miss the occasional take out with them, but not necessarily the carb coma that results from the meal.  We still eat together, so that isn’t the issue.   

Anyway, I ate a lot.  After dinner I had a snack and then another.  Those ‘snacks’ were each the size of a decent lunch.  I didn’t feel the binge hangover this morning and that’s a good thing.  And food so far has been good – massive hemp and fruit smoothie for breakfast, herbal tea, small sandwich and chips for lunch, and a massive salad inspired by Black Bean Company is the plan for dinner.  Out of nowhere, my stomach has decided to go nuts and nothing else is appealing to me. 

Meh.  Anyway, the binge is gone, even though I’m not sure what brought it on.  I feel icky and want to sleep but can’t.  Sigh. 

Here’s to Tuesday, February 8, 2011.  Day one without a binge. 

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